Apr 30, 2010

note 4

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my heart belongs to you





what do they know...

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They say that life goes on
I'll find true love again
It's not the end of the world
one day my heart will mend

Someone will come along
and a new love will grow
That's what they say
but what do they know

How could they know the pain
I feel inside my heart
they never lost your love
so who do they think they are

They never held you
or had to let you go
Well they're not trying to live without you
so what do they know

They say all is fair in love
but for me that's just not true
I feel like someone took a knife
and cut my life in two

It's better to have love and lost
than to have never loved, I'm told
At least that's what they say
but what do they know

Well they're not trying to live without you
so what do they know




Apr 29, 2010

one night...

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_________________________

when i was in Mabul

i saw a shooting star...

and i wished for

-- happiness --
_________________________

how do i know i have it...
how do you measure happiness...





smile..

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Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky
you'll get by.

If you smile through your pain and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through
For you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness.
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying.
You'll find that life is still worthwhile-
If you just smile....



Apr 28, 2010

note 3

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thinking of you so much
and loving you seems so right






no-yes

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hi.. im coming home in two weeks time...

ohh.. ok... two weeks... ???

yeah.. maybe two weeks plus..

ohh.. ok...

why.. you don't sound happy...

no.. i mean i'm happy.. yay! can't wait for two weeks eh..

yeah.. i'll be home..

yeah.. in two weeks time..

*sigh





Apr 27, 2010

note 2

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i love you today

love you everyday


awww....

note 1

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i'll never get enough of you


Apr 26, 2010

u know.. he said kan...

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"i want you
having you near me, holding you near me
i want you to stay and never go away

it's so right
having you near me, holding you near me
i'll love you tonight, it feels so right
feels so right"

- air supply

heeeee


Apr 25, 2010

yes...

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i'm a one liner... for today...

oh no

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I want you to want me
I'm goin' crazy knowin' she will be your lover tonight
And when
she comes I'll let you go
I'll just pretend as you walk out the door

Oh, no
I can't sleep
Oh, no
I'm goin' crazy with love over you

I need you to need me
I wanna hold you but you're holdin' someone else in your arms
When I close my eyes I see your face
I'm just not sure how much my heart can erase

Oh, no
I can't think, ooh
Oh, no
I'm goin' crazy with love over you

Oh, honey
Oh, sugar

Oh, no
I can't sleep anymore, baby
Oh, no
I can't think anymore, baby
Oh, no
I'm goin' crazy with love over you


"the commodores"





Apr 23, 2010

heyo....

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im home... and very the hitam already... and tired... and busy...


Apr 16, 2010

today is the day....

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for
mabul

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee





Apr 12, 2010

You Know Me Better

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i love love this song...



I think we waited
Long enough, baby
You know me
Only too well

I just thought someway I have to match you
So don't be defensive
No, no, don't try to pretend to
Look surprised

Have you ever known me
Bit too shy to jump in
But when it comes to you
I can't win
'Cause you know me better than I know myself

You know me better than I know myself
You know me the best
You know me better than I know myself
You know what to expect

Understand it
Nobody understands you
The way that I can
Let's see this thing through
One thing remaining
Things will never be the same again
After tonight

So let's get down to it
This thing is getting stronger and stronger
When you did take it further
I can't wait no longer of waiting my turn
I've waited in line

How long have I known you
Not in all this time been untrue
I think i'm rolling free
Let me see this through
You know me better than I know myself

You know me better than I know myself
You know me the best
You know me better than I know myself
You know what to expect

You know me better than I know myself
You know me the best
You know me better than I know myself

How many years can we keep going on this way
(i believe)
Too afraid to ??? And stay
Though I believe the friendship can survive
(i believe)
Maybe it won't if we do or we don't

You know me better than I know myself
You know me the best
You know me better than I know myself
You know what to expect

You know me better than I know myself
You know me the best
You know me better than I know myself
You know what to expect

You know me better than I know myself
You know me better than I know myself
You know me better than I know myself
You know me better than I know myself
You know what to expect




depress...

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seriously
my eyes bengkak already..

why the hell do you have to say that!!??

ihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

BENCI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that is NOT what I MEANT!!!!
is it sooo harsh whenever i reply your text?
do I 'sound' like I'm angry ALL THE TIME??
do I have to put smiley faces icons every 2 words in one sentence???
why you like to assume!!!???
when i talk.. you talk... you talk.. i talk...
what the hell man!

when i'm ANGRY! I WILL DEF. MAKE SURE U KNOW IT!!!
LIKE THIS!

FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!

but did i do that??? NO RIGHT??!!!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

go fly kite!!!

______________________________________________________

*updates

"no la forget it ah i don't want to fight. love you ah..
take care darling... and dont forget to eat well ah.. and think of me ah.."


U DAMN RIGHT I WILL!!!!

ihhhhhhhhhhh penat sia!!











Officially Missing You

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All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It won't go away
And today I’m officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache

I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today
I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially


Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially


It official
You know that I’m missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you



by tamia

Apr 11, 2010

what if...

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i just die right here.. right now... at this spot...
right this second...

who gonna do all the work then...?

you?




Apr 7, 2010

he said...

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"as long as i'm with u i don't care what else would happen.."

*sigh

Apr 4, 2010

you know...

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sometimes when i'm driving..
while listening to radio..
i'll be in my own world.. thinking.. wonder..
having all the questions in my head..
those 'what if...' issues..
and i'll be thinking and missing everybody back home..
home.. friends.. those days..
basically everything la.. depends on the songs..

most of the time..
i'll be imagining myself watching sunset at the beach..
with my sunglass and a cup of coffee..
enjoying the breeze.. not too hot though.. hmm...
and then smile.. and think of my whole life..
things i've done.. and what i have failed to do..
or what i would love to do.. to have.. or to be with..

when will i have the time to do all those things..
especially with mom and dad..

ever since i've lost few ppl that i really really care about..
i mean.. really close.. and somehow they have touched my life.. or vice versa..
i always wonder..

how their partner go thru it?
they are so alone.. not alone ALONE in the world..
but.. u know.. bed time.. you don't sleep with the whole world with you right..
u know.. not having him/her around.. anywhere in the world..
so.. i wonder..

i wonder how they go thru it when even myself can't take it..
it's hard to breathe u know..
but i manage to sleep.. or move on..
but then.. i'm thinking.. maybe it never really happen to me... yet..
i dunno..

then i'd be like..
"hmmm you think too much.. chill.."
and that.. i tell myself..
leave it to HIM.. He knows what to do..

i feel like..
i'm taking things for granted..
thinking that everyone is gonna be around.. forever..

and that.. you know.. as a fact.. is not true..
and when u just starting to accept that fact is real..
hmmm... i'll be panic and lost..
and start calling everyone..
and tell them how much i miss them.. and how much i love them..
and wish i could just come over.. and be with them..
whoever la.. could be you... could be mom.. could be dad.. whoever in my head..

so.. don't be surprised if i call you all the sudden..
just to say 'hi'

sometimes, when it comes to my partner..
i'm like one psycho bitch keep calling him..
it's just that... words are just.... hmmm.. not enough..
saying it just not enough..
but for me.. it's good enough actually..
it's just sometimes i'm afraid they don't really get it..
and i'll get frustrated when i don't get the right respond..

yeah.. i'll be like this..
being sad.. being difficult..

hmm....
what actually is my problem...

no idea..

just..

so chill...







Apr 1, 2010

few days ago...

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i was feeling so restless. unhappy. very sad like i could just cry any seconds.. for no reason.. im not sure why.. i blame it all on work... and partly him, for being away.. i feel lonely ok.
i feel like no one cares.. (no one means him la...) nobody to bising bising behind me.. haihhh....

but that's not it.. i mean. we're ok. we called up each other whenever he's at port. so.. anyway... that's not it.. and then SK said.. it's nemo.. but still... the impact still not that quite right.. i still feel sad.. macam mau nangis like small baby ni...

so I called him up and told him

"B.. I feel sad.. how?"
"why? why you feel sad?"
"i dunno... sedihhh my life.. "
"what you do... stop playing that GRAVITY (sara bareillis) SAD SONG u listening to now.. play LADY GAGA.. you'll be fine ok... stop doing this to yourself.. its hard for me to do work when you feel sad all the time.."

- i was like.. eee macam tai o... kena marah pula...

so.. what i did... i downloaded Lady Gaga - Just Dance..

and damn he's good!

yes.. I feel sooo much BETTER.. sia menari menari lagi... hehe...

bah... to be continued... tomorrow tomorrow la.. my nuffnang 100++ already.. yay!






haiiihhhhh

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