Dec 25, 2009

Merry Merry Christmas...

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Merry Christmas you all..


i'll see you next year k..




Dec 17, 2009

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Dec 16, 2009

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Dec 14, 2009

remember FRIENDSTER ppl??

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i wonder what happen to my account in friendster.. I think I should delete it.. I never log in for yrs... too bad for some of them are not in FB.. but oh well.. too bad eugene...

anyway... found this in 'the star'

Malaysian company buys Friendster

KUALA LUMPUR: Friendster, one of the most popular social networking sites in the world, is now owned by a Malaysian company.

bla bla bla...

The principal shareholder of MOL is Tan Sri Vincent Tan who is chairman and CEO of Berjaya Corporation Bhd.

bla bla bla...

continue here

hmm... I wonder how they make $$ out of it... seriously... I wanna know...

Dec 13, 2009

a good investment..

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Making $$ from Property Investment

It is often said that investment in property is more satisfying than other forms of investment as one is able to physically see, touch and feel the investment.

Following the global property market crash led by United States, it seems like investing in property would be the last thing to do in many countries. But the same cannot be said of Malaysian property.

From prime area like KLCC to urban pocket area like Puchong, there are rarely a stagnant construction projects.

It is safe to say that in Malaysia property investment still provides the investors a good hedge against inflation, sustaining steady rental revenue and capital appreciation.

wanna know more? click here


Dec 12, 2009

my advice to you...

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wait & let it happen naturally..
it will eventually..
don't ever look for it..
all you need to do is to

b.e.l.i.e.v.e



lawrence f.






Dec 11, 2009

hehe

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this fella ah..
hmm....
im speechless..





Dec 10, 2009

sleepless night

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it's 345am

and i'm here telling you i'm still wide awake..

hmmm....

my head is thinking about work..

but my heart planning to pamper myself..

soon.. home.. here i come..

i'm so gonna sleep like i never sleep before...

ohhh....


Dec 9, 2009

bored

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island concept it seems..
so the katil in the middle of the room la..
something like that..



this is one of the guest room.. hmm..
i don't mind staying there forever.. =D
anyway...
my client loves it.. so good la..


u like??




Dec 7, 2009

freaking out

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die la me.. how to finish my work..

i have too many things to do.. i dunno which one to do first..

Dec 6, 2009

jantan keberet memang keberet..

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Boob-starring Good for Men

HERE’s a simple “secret” to ensure longevity for men – stare at women’s breasts for 10 minutes a day to live an additional five years.

keberet kan!!? big O.M.G - get a life

Both Sin Chew Daily and China Press reported that a German research published in the New England Journal of Medicine showed that men ogling at breasts for 10 minutes a day was equivalent to a 30-minute gym workout.

come on... seriously?? can u believe this? weird kan...

Sin Chew Daily reported yesterday that the team had spent five years researching 200 men.

don't they have other things better to research?? FIVE YEARS??? haiya.... goodness

Results showed that men who liked to stare at women’s breasts have lower blood pressure, suffer less cardiovascular disease and have slower heart beat.

huh.. go and die already...

The daily also quoted gerontologist Dr Karen Weatherby as saying that sexual desire ensured better blood circulation and led to better health.

However, it was reported that reporters had attempted to search the article in the journal’s website but failed. Thus, there were doubts whether there was indeed such an article in the journal.


i dunno la.. i just don't get it why they published this kind of article in the newspaper.. well i dunno about you.. but it's weird for me..


Dec 3, 2009

be strong

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doing my best to be strong.. to go thru all the shit.. mentally emotionally spiritually and physically..

yup. ada la tu...i tak larat nak mention kat sini.. bikin panas

anyway.. i've been busy for the past few months.. in fact very3 busy catching up with my work.. and i'm surprised it keeps me 'alive'.. yeah.. although those sleepless nights kinda 'killing' me.. but the outcome are great and i'm loving it.. but when it comes to the other one.. haiyaa... i dunno la.. i cannot afford to think about it now.. i'll think about it later.. when i have no project running la..

"love myself before i love others"

that's what my partner keeps on telling me.. putting that so called her 'wisdom' into my brain..
and i'm kinda fall into it.. but come to think of it.. i have so many things to say about that.. but nevermind.. whatever la..

what else ah..

yeah.. i'm thinking about when i'm gonna buy my flight ticket to go back home.. thinking about presents.. when actually i have the time to go for shopping.. cos I only have 20more days.. ya ka..? whateverla.. meaning i have to finish up all my drawings.. finish up all site marking.. finish up all materials.. the paperwork.. eeeeeeeeeee.... its freaking me out just to think of it.. dunno can siap or not..

i know.. i'm wasting my time blogging kan.. but at this very moment.. i'm having this idea block...
no idea at all.. i feel like i'm designing the sameee thing... kitchen la.. dining la.. living la... but actually.. what choice do i have kan.. all bungalows.. of course they have all these.. haiyaa...

i'm not complaining with my work now.. i'm just freaking out with the timing.. sia rasa rasa kan.. macam tidak dapat balik o... but.. still I know i'll be home for christmas this year.. i can feel it in my bone.. fingers cross la..

bah ok la.. gotta go.. ciao cinciao...

here's some part of my conversation w mom...

mom: bila kau balik?

vsk: balik where?

mom: sini la.. mana lagi..

vsk: oh.. for?

mom: ish.. kau ni..

vsk: nothing there ba.. for what to go back.. (giggling)

mom: silaka kau.. 3 taun tidak balik balik xmas mau macam tai lagi sana..

vsk: eisehmen.. sia main main saja ba.. eeeeeeeeeee.......... sia balik ba.. baliiiiikkkk.... nanti sia kawan kau pi breakfast.. we go lepak lepak ah...

mom: macam tai saja kau ni.. bla bla bla...

panjang la she bising... well i was just kidding around with her.. simply only... hehehe...

so.. where do we go in kk.. what's new there.. how long i'll be home this time.. wah.. the chillis in damai w the fried mee.. yum yum.. and the ngiu chap.. wahh.... w the chillis.. and then apalagi ah.. i don't really shop there.. where to shop also i'm not sure.. but i know where to makan.. that's all matters actually... and then the kids at home.. hmm.... thinking of picnic.. let the kids play pasir.. hehehe... nice that kan.. whatever la.. hmm... ok la.. bye..

ps: CK just called asking me to send her the car key.. weird.. she couldn't find her car key.. ish weird o this woman.. buduh!!! cit! biar kau sana office.. tidur la sana ni malam.. everytime hilang car key... nasib kereta tidak hilang kan... haiihhh pening my head...







Nov 19, 2009

6sense

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something is telling me something fishy is happening..

and today...

true enough..

i'm damn right..

my sixthsense is sooo much better than before..

hmm...


Nov 17, 2009

hmm..

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2012

ok la..

nothing great about it..

but the animation are superb!

wow..

Nov 13, 2009

O-oww

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OWNERS of PIRATED VCDs - BEWARE
- the star - Nov12, 2009


KUALA LUMPUR: The Government is considering taking action against the owner of even one pirated video compact disc although it is meant for private use, said Domestic Trade, Cooperatives and Consumerism Minister Datuk Seri Ismail Sabri Yaakob.

“Under the law now, any person who has one pirated VCD is not guilty, but if the person owns more than three, action can be taken.

die la like this.. how ah..?

i wonder what they gonna do.. and how..? hmmm...


Nov 12, 2009

you're kidding me right.. ?

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WOMEN w BIGGER BREASTS FOUND TO BE SMARTER
- the star - Nov 12, 2009

A STUDY conducted in the United States showed that women with big breasts are not necessarily less intelligent than those who are less endowed.

Quoting a Singapore newspaper article, Sin Chew Daily said women with bigger breasts were found to be smarter instead.

It said the study was conducted in Chicago to find out whether the size of a woman’s bust affected her brain power.

continue read here...

you're kidding me right..?

seriously?

so... are you bigger and smarter?


Nov 3, 2009

hollywood job

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Dream Job

Ng Chun Seong has helped to make some of Hollywood’s recent major productions look bigger, better and impossibly spectacular.

THE next time you watch a Hollywood blockbuster, pay attention to the dazzling special effects because they may be created by a Malaysian.

Ng Chun Seong, 25, has lent his expertise to blockbuster films such as Wanted, X-Men Origins: Wolverine, The Incredible Hulk, and the upcoming 2012.

With his computer, he made a city for the Hulk to destroy, created a menacing alien in Aliens vs. Predator: Requiem, and then there’s that cool scene in Wanted where James McAvoy has to grab a fast-moving spindle in a loom with his bare hands.…

The Kuala Lumpur-born Ng, who is based in the United States, had always wanted to be involved in movie special effects, especially after watching CGI-rich films like Jurassic Park in his youth.

full article read here

- you know where he studied before go to U.S and then to L.A and then to Hollywood..? One Academy only..sini Bandar Sunway... I was from there too.... =( and I have the same dream... to work in Hollywood.. but his one is animation job.. mine the set up job... i've always dreamed of that actually... but... i guess.. I didn't go for it.. haiih.... oh well... its good to know that he actually got it.. his dream job.. and mine too... now at least I know.. my dream of working in hollywood is not bullshit.. it can be real... like this fella... so soooo happy for him...

ps.. ohh I dunno who is this guy.. dunno hensem or not.. but I bet all his work are real fantastic.. U see la what film.. the latest one coming out soon.. 2012... we wait and see la..
sure good one.. since Benjamin Button also his...

jealousnyeee....


Nov 2, 2009

U want free honeymoon?

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T'ganu offers free honeymoons to couples bent on divorce

KUALA TERENGGANU: A free second honeymoon trip awaits any Terengganu married couple on the brink of breakup. The state will pay for it.

- which comes with counseling la.

"The outcome was positive, he said without giving details as to the number of marriages saved. When the love between couples starts to turn sour, normal counselling would be provided. But only those on the brink of separation or divorce would be offered the second honeymoon, Ashaari said."

- nice nice.. good idea kan but i wonder.. for all? or only in Terengganu? all races? i wonder...

read full article here

Nov 1, 2009

u smelly or not?

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Body odour, humdrum sex cause divorces in Terengganu

KUALA TERENGGANU: Smelly body odour, humdrum sex and boring pyjamas are behind the high divorce rate in the state and the government is scrambling to find ways to improve sexual relations, especially for newly wed couples.

"Muhammad Ramli said that couples who had been married for less than five years but already on the verge of separation told counsellors that routine sex and smelly body odour were the main reasons behind their break up."

- not surprise.. who can tahan body odour.. but still... what an excuse right..?

"He said he was bewildered that some couples even blamed their spouses for old-fashioned pyjamas - sarong and t-shirt - body odour during intimate moments made their sex life monotonous or turned them completely off."

- teruk juga kan.. sad...

"He said the state government was also looking for beauty consultants to provide grooming and aesthetic workshops for couples in the state."

- aahh... cheap or not? cheap ones also not good you know.. some la..

"Muhammad Ramli said he had also suggested that couples to bathe together to make their relationship more exciting.

“I met this elderly couple in Kelantan. Both of them bathe together although they are grandparents and enjoy a blissful marriage."

- see... you all mandi la together gether ya.. you will enjoy a blissful marriage...

so.. whoever got body odour.. please... do something with it... don't ignore other ppl's comments.. we're not lying..

read full article here



Oct 31, 2009

Minimum price

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"The Government will enforce a minimum price for cigarettes on Jan 1 next year."

“The Government has to fix a minimum price to make it difficult for adoloscents to buy cigarettes,"

"The minimum price suggested for a 20-stick cigarette pack is RM6.20."

i don't understand o.. they want to make it difficult.. but they lower the price... ?? apa o... ??

read here...

Oct 30, 2009

awards for marrying single mums..

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awards for marrying single mums..

"Kelantan state executive councillor Wan Ubaidah Omar has proposed special awards for male elected representatives in the state who marry single mothers as a solution to their rising numbers."

(somehow i find something is not right here.. not to the single mothers... but the idea of 'awarding'.... )

"She said such irresponsible husbands should be whipped as a punishment, as suggested by Kelantan Mentri Besar Datuk Nik Abdul Nik Mat."

( yes.. that's right... SHOULD BE! but... can ah? if its the wifey? how? cannot also kan... )

continue read here...


Oct 29, 2009

Asia Liew Ya Hang

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Baby born on plane named after AirAsia

The airline has presented Liew and the baby free flight tickets for life to celebrate the birth

so nice kan... they can go ANYWHERE they want... FOR FREE!! eeeeee... i want alsooo.....

- read all here

Oct 28, 2009

Couple wed – 20 years after death

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A MAN and woman who died in a car accident 20 years ago “tied the knot” in an afterworld wedding ceremony, reported Sin Chew Daily.

Zhang Yun Hu was just 18 and Li Jia Mei was 20 when they died in a car accident some 20km away from Gua Musang two decades ago.

Zhang’s mother, Huang Ya Yi, was reported as saying that five years ago, she dreamt of her son telling her that he had married Li and they had two children in the afterworld.

“At one point, the mother fell ill and the family later found out through a medium that the couple wanted the family to organise a wedding for them,” the daily reported.

Huang recovered from her illness after her family discussed wedding plans with Li’s family.


lil bit creepy but.. romantic juga kan..

Mr & Mrs Lai

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Happy Anniversary to both of you..
27th October 2009


found one nice poem for you two.. simple one la..

Loving Pair

It takes two special people,
To make a loving pair.
There’s a joy just being around you,
A feeling I/we love to share.
So best anniversary wishes to you,
Bringing years of joy and pleasure.
May each year keep getting better,
With memories to treasure.

By Karl Fuchs

&


Happy Birthday to you JK..
28th Oct 2009

hug hug

miss you all at home so much!

don't forget I love you all..

muah muah!


Oct 26, 2009

already gone

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Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone



Oct 24, 2009

i didn't forget..

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happy belated birthday to adorable innocent & naughty boy

and that's Joshua..

i miss him sooo much i dunno how to describe my feelings right now..
i wanted to call him to wish him but i got sooo occupied with work
cos i was sooo rushing all the way... which i'm kinda fed up with it..
cos even saturday and SUNDAY they just have to make some kind of
promises to submit this and that.. which is almost impossible..
but its possible la....
hmm... forget abt work..
im out of topic already...

if only i have enough of vitamin m to get myself back home right now..
i wanna be there with them and surprise them..
they'll be for sure sooooo happy & excited!!..
they'd be like..

"hi aunty yok..." and smile smile.. and then smile smile again...
and then start la all the normal nonsense..


well.. i can just give them a call tomorrow and make sure they don't forget me!
love them unconditionally
no doubt abt that..

these kind of things that i always hate myself whenever i think about it..
taking things for granted.. being so-called 'busy'
until i don't find time to just call my loved ones..
always wanted to do something nice.. but never actually do it..
always wanted to say something nice just to make them smile.. even for few seconds..
haiih... i always ask myself and tell myself off from time to time..
"why the hell am i here and not there for them/her/him.."
(it can be anybody..)
for example.. daddy.. mummy.. sisters.. brothers.. cousins.. friends..
everybody are not getting any younger you see.. so..
I feel like i'm not spending enough time with them..
why am i here? for what? why am i not at home?
why am i so far away from home?

see.. im out of topic already..
basically i miss home.. i miss everyone there..
where everyone knows everyone..
haiih...
what's next actually?
what is what actually?

you see.. this is what you get when i'm blogging..
that's what in my head right now.. and actually for the past few weeks..
thinking what is what..
you must be wondering right now what actually i'm talking about right..
well.. like what i said before..
you don't have to get me.. if you get me.. then good la.. if you don't.. then f. it.. =)

oh yeah.. i called up daddy today..

"hi dad.. how are you?"
"hi yok.. im ok.. kau macamana sana?"
"im ok.. surviving i guess.."
"ohh.. ok... kau tidak balik?"
"i dunno.. i wish to.. i will when i can ok.."
"ok.."
"so.. how's everything there?"
"ok.. everyone is ok.."
"ohh.. i see.. well.. im just calling to say hi.. i miss you.. that's all.."
"ohh ok.. yeah.. miss you all too.."
"well.. dont worry about that cos SK and CK are going home next weekend..
so.. you'll get to see them messing around the house.. (hehe) "
"ohh.. next weekend..? ohh ok.. how about you and MK.."
"naah.. i can't and i dunno about MK.. well.. who knows right.. i might be there too.. i dunno.."
"ohh.. ok.."
"ok la.. ill call you some other time ok.. i gotta go.."
"ok.."
"ok.. byee.. love you.."
"ok.. love you too.."

so.. that is that... me borak kosong w my daddy..
and it really made my day and i miss home..

bah ok la.. ciao cin ciao peeps..



Oct 22, 2009

True Happiness...

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money can buy a certain degree of happiness; you can get a decent meal, pay your household bills, wear your favourite clothes or have a great day out.

Likewise, a hungry, homeless person living on the streets can hardly be happy if he doesn’t have even a single quid to buy a sandwich to fill his stomach.

Simply put, money can buy something that may put a smile on your face or let you do the things you love to do.

Of course, there’s a distinct difference between materialistic and true happiness – the latter coming from within and depending on how you perceive it. But then again, money may not make you completely happy, as you’ll probably be surrounded by fair-weather friends who are simply eyeing your wealth.

In fact, there’re plenty of miserable rich people out there – celebrities, film stars and footballers as financial stability does not necessarily guarantee happiness.

Just as you can be alone but not lonely, the richest people in the world are sometimes unhappy, while the poorest the happiest.

For many, true happiness is being in the company of their loved ones or with genuine friends. After all, this is one commodity that cannot be bought or sold.

cont. read here

so... are you happy? or miserable?



Oct 21, 2009

my tuesday

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12am - 4am
doing 3D for Modern Classic design
(I dunno why this client want classic classic..)

830am - 1230pm
meeting w contractors

2pm - 4pm
sort out material.. meeting w suppliers for pricing

4pm - 7pm
continue w 3D drawings

7pm - 8pm
makan..

830pm - 130am
finish up 3D drawings then continue w quotation for tomorrow meeting..

and now.. 220am.. I am still here.. trying to blog something before I hit the shower..
at least something la..

sia sedang mengomplain diri sendiri ba ni..
I don't understand why I do this to myself..
but I'm not giving up.. telling myself have faith..
and pray..

later I will pray.. pray so that I won't be soooooooooo exhausted!






Oct 14, 2009

hmm....

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i'm soooooo tired...

too many things to do.. i dunno which one to do first..

ergh...

no time... no time...

Sep 16, 2009

thumbnails

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something wrong with this building kan..


Sep 14, 2009

holy month

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Elderly man and lover, 60, among 25 couples caught for khalwat

KUALA TERENGGANU: A 70-year-old man and his 60-year-old lover were among 25 couples caught for committing khalwat (close proximity).

The elderly couple was nabbed in a compromising position at a budget hotel here during a raid conducted by enforcement officers from the state Religious Department.

the star - cont. here

70 and 60!! omy... don't play play.. still going strong man..

_______________________________________________________________


Malay youths drink beer during Ramadan

THE holy month of Ramadan has not stopped some Malay youths from drinking beer and watching table-top dancing by bikini-clad women at a club in Kuala Lumpur on Saturday night.

An invite to the party - with the theme Bikini In The City - was posted on the social networking site Facebook and it managed to lure 202 people, who confirmed their attendance via the Internet.

the star - cont. here

why la all these people don't know how to jaga diri.. pandai pandai la.. haiya.. see now.. kena tangkap sudah.. hmm...

______________________________________________________________


107 yr old wants 23rd hubby

She said she felt lonely without a companion during Ramadan.

“I am not searching for a man as handsome as our Prime Minister but someone to accompany me in my twilight years,” she said.

“I realise that I am an aged woman. I don’t have the body nor am I a young woman who can attract anyone.

“My intention to remarry is to fill my forlornness and nothing more than that.”

the star - cont. here

omy... omy... ain't she's lucky??? 23rd wohhh.... meaning she have 22 husbands!! wow! OMY!!



Sep 13, 2009

cheaper passports

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Infrequent travellers can opt for cheaper passports

BUKIT KAYU HITAM: If you seldom travel abroad, you can now save on your passport and pay RM100 instead of RM300 for the Alternative International Malaysian Passport.

From Oct 1, Malaysians can ap­­ply for the alternative passport which is valid for two years, announced Home Minister Datuk Seri Hisham­mud­din Tun Hussein.

- the star - cont. here..

wah... so nice kan.. hehe...lets go Bali for the weekend.. yay!



Sep 8, 2009

in the shadow

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No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes
I feel I going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know that I am haunted to be wanted

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life

In the shadows

In the shadows

They say
That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe
But I
I rather kill myself then turn into their slave
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life

Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something
Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
I've been watching
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been living for tomorrows

In the shadows

In the shadows
I've been waiting



the rasmus




Sep 7, 2009

us

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have a cosmo!


Aug 30, 2009

sad..

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Aug 22, 2009

grateful

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when u fall..
somebody else lift u up..

when u cry..
somebody else give a shoulder to cry on..

when u are lost..
somehow
somebody else will find you..


be grateful and thankful and remember





Aug 16, 2009

bridget jones's diary

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out of reach
gabrielle

Knew the signs wasn't right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok

But I'm
So confused
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You'll be out of my mind
I'll be over you

And know I'm
So confused
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me





Aug 6, 2009

smile...

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Can't Smile Without You
by Barry Manilow

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would believed that you're part of a dream
Now it all seems like years away

now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you




a friend said...

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The key to Wealth is being Satisfied

with what you already have






Aug 5, 2009

wahh...

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so nice today...
hujan..




i dunno ah..

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MK curi kunci kereta JK..
if got problem...
i dunno ah...

DO NOT blame other ppl but HER...





Aug 4, 2009

apologize

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to those that i didn't get to see... at all... for my last trip...

sorry ah..
it's not that i didn't want to make time for you..
i was just so occupied with things around me..
like the babies... and then things in my head...
and then the babies again..
since i couldn't let go those babies out of my sight..
i assumed you too with your baby(ies)..
so.. that's why i didn't call up.. i didn't text...

heeee...

but you know i love you...

maybe next trip right...

hug hug

=)




Aug 3, 2009

simply blog..

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i miss home...
so much...
haiihh....


it's so quiet here..
what would happen if I just scream right now?
why do we have to grow old?
why can't we all stay the same?
why is it so hard?
why do people take things for granted?

i went to see her last week.. she looks good..
i asked her "are you alone?"
and she said "yeah.. i'm alone.. he's no longer here.."
hmmm... she's so right.. he's no longer there..
usually he'll be at the corner observing everyone..

someone said "she must be thinking she's all alone in the world"

hmm.. i don't know what to say here...

she said
"today is your day.. tomorrow is my day.."

i guess so..

she said
" just leave it up to Him... take it as your luck and forgive them.. let Him deal with them"

i have to repeat myself this statement.. then i can breathe easily.. literally..

she said..
" you have to make both side guilty... it works.. "

i guess so..

bah okla.. i know U don't understand..

well.. U don't have to actually...





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i wish i wasn't....









Jul 28, 2009

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i can't breathe..





Jun 18, 2009

St Jude

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jude

St. Jude Prayer

A Prayer to St. Jude Thaddeus

Most Holy Apostle, St. Jude Thaddeus,

faithful servant and friend of Jesus,

the name of the traitor who delivered your beloved Master

into the hands of his enemies has caused you to be forgotten by many.

But the Church honors you,

and I invoke you as the special advocate of those

who are in trouble and almost without hope.

Help me to realize that through our faith we triumph over life

difficulties by the power of Jesus who gave his life for us.

Come to my assistance that I may receive the consolation

and succor of heaven in all my needs, trials, and sufferings,

particularly (my petitions and your petitions =D)

and that I may praise God with you and all the saints forever.

St. Jude, apostle of the Word of God, pray for us.

St. Jude, follower of the Son of God, pray for us.

St. Jude, preacher of the love of God, pray for us.

St. Jude, intercessor before God, pray for us.

St. Jude, friend of all in need, pray for us.

St. Jude, pray for us, and all who invoke your aid.

(click here too)

Amen



Jun 16, 2009

the thing u called ~ bendera jepun ~

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ahh... now i have something to share with you guys...

the past few weeks... haiyaaa... very bad weeks for me... drama drama drama!! but now everything is a ok!

lets jump to... last weekend.. ermm... last last weekend...

last last weekend.. CK & MK went out for car wash & Giant... only SK & I limpang2 depan tv sampai bangas I tell you...

then later on in the evening.. we decided to go out to wash blacky pula.. so... we went.... just nearby our place.. 5min drive..

then we had nescafe ice while waiting for dirty blacky and at the same time, thinking what to eat... where to go... what to do... hmmm... like this la when the jantan not around.. adaaaaa saja mau buat...

after an hour talking kok.. well... not all kok la.. you know.. the 'analyzing' session... hmm.... we decided to go somewhere... at first we just drove around.. only SK & I, the other 2 kutz decided to stay home..

left and right left and right.. we ended up in Bangsar... hmm... no parking man... we had to park soooo far.. but its ok cos we thought of checking out few boutiques before any stop at any restaurant that can cuci mata at the same time... (for eSKay ah B.... not for me...) =P

so... we went into few boutiques.. when we reached the 3rd one... not sure what's the name of it.. anyway... eSKay was somewhere inside there checking out some jewellery... i think... and I was checking out some pretty nice sandals... trying out kunun u know... and then the next thing... just before I could open my mouth to ask for the size... this lady (which eSKay said a guy.. or 'shem') came to me and said...

"i think.. (something bla bla) police"..
then i was like...
"huh?? police??"
"no.. miss... u got (something bla bla) and bla bla..." which i seriously BLUR!! wtf man...
"ape?? don't have size ke?"
"nooo... periooood..."

"oooo... perioooood....??"
it took me few sec. to realize....
.
.
.
"ahh... O.M.G... PERIOD!!!?"

so i turned.. and there U are U stupid mark!!
then so fast my head flashback the last 15minutes...

~ ada hensemboy ka tidak ah tadi..? sepa di belakang sia tadi ah..? cilaka those old ladies can just look at me!! ~

hmmmm..... so.. what i did... we decided to go back home again... yes.. alllll the way from Bangsar to Puchong.... just to change! at first we thought it's gonna ruin the mood for Bangsar.. yeah right! nooo... this time we went with mr. mini... hehehe go in style la kunun... this time I got a very nice parking...

actually... i finished already... but dunno why.... still can bocor... ahhh go to hell with it la... and yes.. we went back to the boutique.. but didn't buy anything from there.. and i've double checked... the person is a she.. not shem... *roll eyes

end of the day, i got myself a short.. cannn la for 'inanam - inanam'... u know... hehehe...

well... about this 'bendera jepun' thingy... this was not the worse that ever happened to me...

hmmm let me tell you.... ehem.....

back to 2005... or 2006... i think... the kutz clan were still in S.Ville, Sunway... that time we 'almost' never cook at home.. so... 'almost' everynight dinner outside... that time the meeting point was the chinese restaurant at Ridzuan Condo... EVERYDAY... so ngam ngam that day... I got back soooo early, so I decided to go there straight instead of going back to apartment.. (no lift ma... so... might as well go there kan...5 tingkat tu...) ohhh by the way... I was having period that time... I think my 2nd day.. or 3rd day... hmmm? I think 2nd day...

anyway... like I said I got back much earlier than usual... what else to do right.. ordered drinks la... one after another... and I'm not sure what else I was doin other than drinking.. I think... sketching kot... and then... like I said it was my 2nd day of period... meaning it was still heavy flow la kan... (U geli already? hehehe... wait... not yet finish...)

so... my arse like goyang punya goyang... have to wait kan for all these perempuan keberets... laaaaaaambat mau mati!!!! and then nescafe ice one after another.. apalagi... my bladder FULL i tell you.... haiyaaaaa... CANNOT TAHAN already!!!

sooooo what I did... I stood up la... then I felt the 'air terjun' like nobody business!!! (not ter-kencing u know... the period flow ba...) alalalalaaaaa... so.. apalagi... I checked la... ramas sana sini...

I was like... OMG!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!
OMFG!!!!!

u know... I bocor like NOBODY BUSINESS!!!! NO MORE 'bendera jepun'!!! dunno what flag already la... it's more like the GLOBE already!!!!! SERIOUSLY!!!

hmmm.... I'm not sure why I'm telling you this... but.... i dunno... I find it funny whenever I think about it... hehehehe....

Ohhh.... and then kan....

after I found out about the 'GLOBE' at the back of my arse.... as I mentioned to you just now... about the nescafe ice.. my bladder FULL! U know like... mau terkencingggggg already ni.. yang if I silap turning.. FOR SURE 'niagara falls'!! ahhh like that la...

soooo.... I looked around... see whether got hensemboy or not... (penting tu!!) after scanning the whole restaurant.. mostly all koreans young kids... students... mata sepet here and there... hmmm...

then I called up one by one all the perempuan keberets... (the sisters) just to see where they were... sudah mau sampai ka.. or still in office... as usual.. all of them said "ON THE WAY" ... like duhhhh....

but that didn't really help my situation actually that time... so.. I berfikir la...

~ now.. which one is more 'memalukan'... kencing seluar or tambus...? (wahhh long time I never hear that word... tambus... is that malay??) ~

anyway... yeah.. I thought of it.. which one is more embarassing.. the 'globe' or the 'niagara falls'...

hmmm..... kau rasa???

soooooo.... I tarik nafas panjang panjang.... and I walked (no running ok)... I walked like sooooo fast but still I control macho la kunun...head straight up.. and I just imagined as if I'm the only human in the wholeeee building!! in my heart saying... ~ ahhh go to hell la with you all ~

as soon as I reached toilet... I didn't check out the globe yet.. I settled the 'niagara falls' first... then only I checked out the globe... haiyaaaaaa... bloody hell! ^(#$&*@&#^$#@*#*

then I gave myself to cool down... breathe in breathe out... breathe in breathe out....

thinking about it..

~hmm... just now I went thru this way... SUREEEE all the eyes on my arse... so now.. how?~

what I did... I went thru another way... hehehe... then when FINALLY I got back myself to my seat.. I realized not even ONE eye look at me... hmmm weird... cilaka these people... at least come and tell me right..? this one ALL act like never see anything only... babi betul!! ish....

and because of that... I also act like nothing la... U know the duh face...

~ so what? I have period.. and too bad it was a very heavy flow.. what you gonna do about it! ~

after 1hr.. then only these perempuan came..... hmmmm..... normal la that one... laaaaaaambat!!

so... like that la... what else they can say right... laughed only la...

=D kau geli already??

hehehe.... eleeee.... like you never tambus before right..... =P

okla... till then.... happy pms everyone... the ladies i mean...


May 25, 2009

yesterday...

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what did i do... other than 'thinking' 'cleaning' 'sitting'

hmmm...
"he's just not that into you"

hate it but love it
J.aniston.. goooood
D.barrymoore... gooood
J.long... gooood
B.affleck.... gooood
and so on so on...
except S.johannsen.. that B... ihhh... can't stand her..

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I walked across an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand

I felt the earth beneath my feet

Sat by the river and it made me complete


Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin


I came across a fallen tree

I felt the branches of it looking at me?

Is this the place we used to love?

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin


So if you have a minute why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

Somewhere only we know?


Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin


So if you have a minute why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go
So why don't we go


This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?




May 23, 2009

"Emotional"

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remember diana degarmo??

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Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad about everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
Sorry times 10 but you just got in the way

Don't give up now running away
I won't hurt you sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional
[fade]

You say I'm just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I'm just a girl get use to it
No big deal
You can't change me why would you try?
I'm no angel but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

Don't give up
I won't hurt you
Oh, sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel oh yeah
That's when I need you
Sometimes I get emotional
[fade]

That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

May 21, 2009

Life by the Drop

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Hello there, my old friend
Not so long ago it was til the end
We played outside in the pouring rain
On our way up the road we started over again

You're livin our dream oh you on top
my mind is achin,' Lord it won't stop
That's how it happens livin life by the drop

Up and down the road in our worn down shoes
Talkin about good things and singin the blues
you went your way and I stayed behind
We both knew it was just a matter of time

You're livin our dream oh you on top
my mind is achin,' Lord it won't stop
That's how it happens livin life by the drop

No wasted time, we're alive today
Churnin up the past, there's no easier way
Time's been between us, a means to an end
God it's good to be here walkin together my friend

We're livin our dreams
my mind's stopped achin,'
That's how it happened livin life by the drop
That's how it happened livin life by the drop
That's how it happened livin life by the drop

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here's my fav. 'toilet' song..
and I love it more when he sings it...
sangat sangat la merdu...

heeee....


May 18, 2009

"love me... even when you hate me..."

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season finale



yeah.. that's just less than 4min clips of grey's..
there's moreeee... like 87+minutes!
well.. i'm not gonna say ANYTHING about it..
it's just tooooo gooooood to tell you the dramas..

so here's the link (the image) for you to watch online...
don't worry... no lagging.. no buffer..
you just have to get yourself a box of tissues..

dammit! i can't wait for next season already!! dammit dammit dammit!


May 15, 2009

hmm.. its friday already

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May 14, 2009

is that you? is that you?

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Are you a man who loves and cherishes and cares for me?

Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Are you a guard in a prison maximum security?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Do we stay home all the time cause you want me to yourself?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Or am I locked away out of fear that I'd find someone else
Is that you? Is that you? Yeah

Well, I don't like living under your spotlight
Just because you think I might find somebody worthy
Oh, I don't like living under your spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right you won't have to worry

Is this relationship fulfilling your needs as well as mine?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Or is this just my sentence? Am I doing time?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah

If this is love, real, real love, then I'm staying, no doubt
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
But if I'm just love's prisoner then I'm busting out
Is that you? Is that you? Yeah

Baby I don't like living under your spotlight
Just because you think I might find somebody worthy
Oh, I don't like living under your spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right you won't have to worry

Oh, you ought to be ashamed of yourself
What the hell do you think you're doing
Loving me, loving me so wrong!

Baby, all I do is try
To show you that you're my
One and only guy
No matter who may come along
Open your eyes? cause baby I don't lie

Hey? cause I don't like living under your spotlight
Just because you think I might find somebody worthy
No, I don't like living under your spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right you won't have to worry

I don't like

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ahh.. don't you just love this song...

May 10, 2009

i have no idea...

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do you know in Korea they have fake funeral centres?
a death course...?

find out more from this link..

When death is a reminder to live

3dfgbhnj

2werfghj


scary but interesting isn't it?




May 9, 2009

"best not-wedding day ever.." says Meredith..

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"You never know the biggest day of your life
is the biggest day.

Not until it's happening.
You don't recognize the biggest day of your life,
not until you're right in the middle of it.
The day you commit to something or someone.
The day you get your heart broken.
The day you meet your soul mate.
The day you realize there's not enough time,
because you wanna live forever.
Those are the biggest days.
The perfect days."
- izzy stevens





"Today's the day my life begins.
All my life I've been just me. Just a smart mouth kid.
Today I become a man.
Today I become a husband.
Today I become accountable to someone other than myself.
Today I become accountable to you.
To our future.
To all the possibilities that a marriage has to offer.
Together, no matter what happens, I'll be ready.
For anything. For everything.
To take on life, to take on love.
To take on possibility and responsibility.
Today Izzie Stevens, our life together begins.
And I for one can't wait."
- alex kerev

May 8, 2009

season 2 ep23

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xoxo
gossip girl


'The Wrath of Con'

http://www.veo.tv/wp-content/gossip-girl.png

sooo
who follow this show?
i'm at latest episode now.. heeee

you want to know what happen to S
with her new hot conman bf Gabriel?

ermm.. not..?

you want to know about B & Nate, who asked her to move in together...
or Chuck, who finally gave the answer to B.. ??

hmmm.. nope?

you want to know about Rufus's plan.. wedding bell?..
ahh.. finally!!

nope? too much info?

ermm...

do you know that the queen of devil is back..
'St Georgina!!'

and some 'exorcism' performed by queen B...??
as usual...

hehe..

ermm...

gee.. someone got themselves arrested..

hmm....

so... anyone?

hihihi... woopsie!




May 7, 2009

don't plan..

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seriously.. i have nothing to blog about.. no drama these days.. OMG
the recent 'drama' i had was last weekend with some of the 'enam jahanam' (6BFFs).. actually come to think of it.. there are more than six of us.. i'm not sure why six.. but if we call it 'tujuh jahanam' or 'lapan jahanam'.. it doesn't sound right.. right?

so, anyway.. i made that call for last weekend.. i didn't even tell anyone about it till the night before..

"ohh.. tomorrow we're going to the curve to meet JC.."

but even that.. it was just a 'plan'.. you see planning never go right with me.. sometimes it does.. but most of the time.. it's just a 'plan'.. heee..

let me tell you what i really mean here..

last weekend supposed to be one of the 'happening' weekend.. at least for me la.. cos i'm kinda 'line very clear' right now since he's gone to deep sea.. LOL (die la me if he ever read this..)

first, msn JC to go for a drink and at first she thought i meant clubbing.. ah! yeah right.. told her just coffee with the kutz and lim and she suggested the curve.. caaaan la.. since i made that call.. ok la.. but we didn't confirm the time.. we both just said.. "anytime".. so.. there's a possibility last minute rain check..

the next day.. all got up late.. as usual.. nothing new there but it's public holiday, so SK and CK were home. CK suggested to go to Subang Parade.. sales gila she said.. but naah.. this time we go to the curve.. got ZARA sales!! wah wah wah... plus JC will be there! so.. bersemangat la!!

one by one ready... from 1130am to 130pm.. all were set but still sitting down watching E.DeGeneres & still not confirm 'yet' whether we're going to the curve or subang parade... orrrrr just somewhere nearby.. so I text JC..

"where you?"
"the curve"
"ok. we're coming"

and that's the time the 'coffee plan' confirmed!! LOL.. aaaand not yet finish!! theeeen only i text CLim2..

"where you? lets go to the curve for coffee... like now... get ready!.."
"ok.. 30min"
"see you there in 25"

hahaha... see... hehehe... hmm... ok.. about the later part.. OMG!! the jam... the parking.. the crowd... eeeeeee boiling boiling boiling!! for now, lets just scrap that..

other than the 'coffee plan'.. we had sooo much other interesting plans..

eSKay suggested to go to the Kaamatan in PWTC.. told everyone about it and we even 'planned' to bring along the tuhau for an exchange with 'free tickets'.. (but actually ticket RM5 only.. i think so..) hahaha nooo la.. just kidding with the tuhau & the free tickets.. yeah right!!..

it's like EVERY YEAR this question will pop up..

"wanna go to the kaamatan in KL?"
"ermm.. who will be there?"
"dunno..."
"ermm.. can also.. what do we do?"
"dunno.. see people.. see the unduk ngadau.."
"and then..?"
"and then... eat maybe..? or drink...? semua sabahan juga ba tu.."
"ooo... can can.. "

and then come next day..

"OMG.. we missed the kaamatan.. dammit!!"

hehehe... EVERY YEAR!! for almost 11yrs i'm in KL.. never been to any kaamatan in KL.. at least my sis did.. few times.. i think..

and then.. other than the Kaamatan.. we 'planned' to go HRC too! we were soooo into it until we 'planned' to wear dress for that!! (me la.. the rest like.. "ahhh!! dress!!!??") imagine! that's bcos we're at the curve.. tried out some dresses la.. wah wah wah.. sannntik i tell you..

since JC's niece is seventeen.. so we 'planned' to have dinner then stay until.. haiyaa.. you know i know la.. once go out after dinning time have to check ID already kan.. hmm...

all were set!!

"tomorrow ah.. don't be late.."

yeah right!!! the next day... got up dunno what time.. all face like 'tidak bermaya'.. one of us just have to say it out loud.. "so lazy la"

hmm... came evening.. received text from JC..

"hey.. tonight rain check ah.. next time.."

LOL!! hahaha.. there goes the plannnssss

ohhh another one... eSKay & CLim2 'planned' to collect passport that morning... got cancelled too.. (no bali for you then you know!)

hihihi... gee.. what a 'planner' right!? *roll eyes

ok la.. too long already..

ciao cin ciao!

ps: i hope Danny Gokey will be out.. but i feel Kris will be out.. what do you think?